[dropcap]I[/dropcap]t is now just over a month until my next wild adventure, the Rickshaw Run, begins — a 2,700km (2,000mi) journey across northern India. By this time in April, I will be on the second or third day in our glorified and pimped out 3-wheeled rust bucket attempting to learn how to drive the damn thing. Some say it’ll be a piece of cake, others have no clue what the hell a rickshaw is. For me, I am confident I can get the hang of it, as well as my teammates Derek (The HoliDAZE) and Rutavi (Photokatha).

But will that be enough?

Will I be ready at all for this road trip of insanity? Not only are we taking this rickshaw across the most unpredictable terrain in India for two weeks, but India itself is described as one big mind-fuck on its own. My first time in one of the most diverse and densely populated countries on earth and I feel like taking a leisurely drive through mountains and desert and rivers and a sea of honking steel in the cities. For two weeks. On a roughly “planned” route.

You can tell I am one for precaution huh?

I did purchase some safety gear. More like a get up to race in. Some safety considered when purchasing it though.


Maybe that is what has me on my toes this time around — that I never really plan anything at all when I travel. I tend to show up, hop off the plane/train/bus/boat, get helplessly lost in a place I’ve never been, wander for hours trying to find a place to sleep because I hadn’t pre-booked, and somehow manage to find a place to sleep for the night. This has been my travel style since I began roaming the world in 2011, and though I can’t say it’s worked for me, I can say I’ve made it work.

There are times that I kick myself in the ass for not thinking ahead. Like that time I was lost in Rome for 5 hours searching for a hostel in the summer heat, or when I ran out of money in New Zealand and illegally guerrilla camped in a Lord of the Rings location. Or what about that time…well, this could go own for a while listing my bad backpacker moments. Most of the time, not planning leads me to exactly what I’m looking for in life — the unexpected stories and encounters and experiences that later become either embarrassing tales, or times when I have had one of the most amazing experiences of my life.

So why am I questioning myself this time around?

To be straight forward with you my friend, I don’t know what it is that has me so anxious. And it may just be an intense excitement that I don’t know how to deal with as I sit on this couch at a friend’s house where I am crashing for the month. At the time of this writing, I have 21 days 21 hours 54 minutes and 10 seconds until my flight departs for Delhi. You can tell that I’m not counting down the seconds. No doubt that I am excited. It’s an electrifying feeling waiting to begin a new adventure, especially one of this magnitude. And maybe it’s just an overload of emotion that is bombarding me. Hey, I can admit my feelings.

Everyone that I speak to who has been to India all say the same things about the country. One majority gushes about how amazing the country is and how life changing it was for them. The other side will note something about how it is the most hectic and fast paced and stressful place they have been to. But even those people say they still enjoyed it. And being a person who likes to travel that off-the-beaten-path style, I am normally not worried.

I just can’t help being worried though, after all, India wasn’t even on my radar this year.

Maybe that is a small lie, because I’ve always had India on my mind as a top destination to travel to. And I have fantasized about staying there for an extended time to explore. It just wasn’t set up as a destination I thought of traveling to this year. After returning to the United States last summer, I had no clue where I wanted to go next. I was just dead set on working hard and saving money again, and waiting for some distant place to grab hold of me. I guess you can say India did that with the help of my buddy Derek when he suddenly invited me on this trip only a couple of months ago.

There was no way I could turn down this kind of trip.

Around November I was just beginning to break even after being completely broke from my 8 months in Southeast Asia and Europe, and I had expected to begin stashing money away for a trip after the middle of 2015. I usually travel until I am holding more lint in my pockets than coins, and I did exactly that on this last adventure. When Derek brought me on to his team I had nothing saved up for it. I just had that rising feeling in my stomach and chest, that feeling of something profound. So I joined up knowing I could scrap together enough funds to do the Rickshaw Run. And, knowing that I had two jobs, I was pretty sure I could continue traveling after that.

There’s no way I want to come back soon after.

Immediately I began cutting things out of my life that cost extra money; from nights out at the bar to dining out to whatever in between. I became a hermit. But I go into hermit mode whenever I’m stateside, given that my only goal is to leave again. Hell, even pumpkin spice lattes couldn’t break my savings stride. Well, six days a week at least. During this time period, working two jobs exhausted me, and I let my creative endeavors fall to the wayside. I wrote in a blog post about how unhappy and unmotivated I am when I am back living in DC, and how I contributed to the exact thing that helped fund my trips. I always came back to Washington DC knowing I can make fast and easy money waiting tables, but making this compromise was taking a serious toll on me.

In the new year, I decided to finally stop holding myself back.

I told myself that this trip will be the big one, the one where I surpass the boundaries I’ve set for myself that hold me back from transforming my life of travel into my career as well. My dreams will go hand in hand with my work. After the Rickshaw Run, Derek invited me to go on another amazing journey, one along the ancient silk road where we would travel to all seven ‘Stan countries. Again I believed that I could save up enough at my restaurant job in the short amount of time and that will be my chance to explore a region that most travelers do not — a region that was once the heart of trade in the world with a history spanning the centuries. I added that to my travel plans for 2015 right away.

And while still thinking I could save up enough, one of the worst things happened.

In a recent (and a tad bit depressing) newsletter I sent out, I told about an incident at my restaurant that happened and I was fired. I won’t go into too much detail, but essentially I told my management team 2 months in advance out of respect that I was leaving, and their attitude for me changed. I had never been in trouble at work before, but just a couple of weeks ago I made my first mistake, and was fired for it. But as he stated, “we just don’t have room for travelers here, we need committed people“. And that put a complete stop to my income and ultimately froze my budget savings. On top of that, my roommate was suddenly deployed to Africa and I had to find a place to lay my head for March before the race.

Demoralized is putting it lightly.

This intense fear took hold of me, and I was panicking thinking that I wouldn’t be able to go through with the race now. Also, I had just dropped our deposit of $1,600 on the rickshaw which brought my savings down 75% up until that point. Before, I hadn’t worried, because waiting tables I can make that in two weeks easily. But now, I was left trying to figure out what to do. Our Rickshaw Run team is in the final stages of fund-raising, and I couldn’t even concentrate on the mission at hand. Everything felt like it had fallen apart, that I wouldn’t be able to travel this year, and that I might have to stay in DC longer. And I can’t bear it any longer. I was letting the world shit on me and wallowing in it.

But, as I like to say — the world wasn’t acting against me, the world has bigger things to worry about — like revolving around the fucking sun!

Here I was letting fear take over my emotions, and letting money control my mood. The things that make me happy were overshadowed by this pressure that I had put on myself. Staying positive is key to staying driven and I had to rebound from this and pick myself back up. Shit happens, it is just the universe testing the fortitude of someone daring to break societal rules. The adventure was still there, the world hadn’t ended, I still had some savings stashed away, and I still had time. I just needed to get my mojo back.

This week, I realized that I had allowed outside forces dictate my mood, and I wouldn’t have any more of that.

Good news came to me early this week, when my media job that had been only a 2 days a week gig suddenly expanded to give me 3-5 full working days a week until the trip to India! Also, a best friend of mind and his housemates were rad enough to let me stay at their place for the month on their couch, which is more than enough for me. I began doing what I loved again and getting back to writing and piecing together videos, and I felt an incredible surge in energy.

[custom_headline type=”center” level=”h3″ looks_like=”h3″]Rickshaw Run: What happens now?[/custom_headline]

On the Rickshaw Run front, things have been slowly coming together as well.

Though our fund raising for the charity went phenomenal by raising a whopping $4,000 for Cool Earth and Planterra to support local communities, our personal fundraising has been a bit slower. Slower in the means of finding sponsors. We had set out to try to find sponsors to cover some of our race costs by donating tech we needed to capture this adventure, or sponsorship for ads on our 3 wheeled beauty. Some promising brands have emerged as potential sponsors, but we are still sending emails out night and day for it.

But you, yes you all who are followers of Derek, Rutavi and I, are phenomenal. Your support with our personal GoFundMe page has been so amazing, and so far we have raised $380 of our goal which will help us with costs like fuel and food. You all are so great, and I really can’t wait to send those of you who donated postcards and secret goodies from India.

Along with the fundraising lately, we’ve also added a new member to our team who is the gal I have mentioned in this article a bit. And a new  team name!

Since our previous Rickshaw Run team name was Do Yaar Romanchkari, translated to Two Adventurous Friends, we changed it to include our new member to Teen Romanchak Yaar, or Three Adventurous Friends.


[custom_headline type=”center” level=”h3″ looks_like=”h3″]Meet Rutavi[/custom_headline]

rutavi-mehta-photokathaBorn in Mumbai, India, Rutavi is one of only a handful of Indian women to ever participate in the Rickshaw Run. Adventure has been in her blood since she was a little girl and has led her on some amazing adventures, such as since hiking to Everest Base Camp and spending months living on the remote and uninhabited Lakshadweep Island. Using her travel stories and experiences, as well as the upcoming Rickshaw Run, she strives to empower women with a “women can do, and will do” attitude. Aiming to show that Indian women, and in fact all women in general, can take on incredible journeys and travel India safely.

We knew Rutavi’s sense of adventure and her goals to inspire others aligned with ours, and adding her to the team is exciting.

[highlight]We also finished the Rickshaw Run design![/highlight]

Before we take off into the unknown in that brave little 3-wheeled toaster, we get to pimp it out. All of you have seen Pimp My Ride right? Imagine that without the dubstep, or gold teeth, or transforming cars with hot-tubs, or the tens of thousands of dollars invested in the design. So pretty much nothing schanzzy. Even lacking all of that bling, the rickshaw still gets a freshening up with a custom paint job I designed below. And maybe I’ll bring fake gold teeth.

Since our rickshaw was already named in relation to Hindi culture, I thought I would design a paint job that honored that as well. Sure, most of the other racers do it up hardcore with the British flag or smothered in ‘Merica, and even some are dressed up like freakin’ Furbies.

Instead, I chose to honor one of the sacred animals to India, with a badass graffiti Indian elephant bursting out of the front, and the Indian flag wrapping all the way around to where our route is shown. That back part is definitely some marketing forethought, but the rest was for the spirit.

[highlight]What do you think?[/highlight]

rickshaw-run-design-india-2015 rickshaw-run-india-2015-designSeriously, it’s pretty rad huh? Maybe we can get a battery-powered radio to pop in and pretend to have sub-woofers.

[custom_headline type=”center” level=”h3″ looks_like=”h3″]Moving forward[/custom_headline]

Moving forward is they key to it all. When all of those things happened at once recently that I considered set-backs, I let it halt my drive completely. But no matter what, I just have to keep moving forward, and looking forward. Fear is something that is always creeping upon us, and trying to prevent you from doing something great. And in this instance, because I am nervous it means that it is something really great, and something that defies that standard logic of “normality“, which is exactly the life that I want to lead. Maybe, at a time like this where I have taken a couple of shots at traveling long-term only to return because I had an easy way of making money, this is the craziest adventure and travel test most can take on. And maybe it is just what I need to take my life to the next level.

Third time is a charm right? Even if not, whether I come out of this adventure in the green or in the red, or I have to find a way to keep going without the budget I had hoped, one thing is clear — I won’t let fear dictate my dreams. And I won’t let my dreams be compromised.

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$5 – A personal thank you email and Social Media shout out. What’s up!
$10 – Get a postcard from India! Woo! And everything before.
$20 – Get a postcard and Polaroid from India, AND all the prior jazz.
$50 – Get a custom T-Shirt from our team, and the gnarly stuff before.
$100 – You are SICK! And our hero. Get a photo book from exclusive photos taken on the trip, a t-shirt, Polaroid and postcard, email and shout out!
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  1. Franca March 4, 2015 at 12:16 pm

    It’s normal to be anxious especially before a trip like the one you will do in India. It’s going to be epic, I’m actually excited for you Ryan! On another note, sorry to hear about your job and what happened with your previous manager, that’s not cool at all. Fortunately you moved on and stayed positive.

    Looking forward to your Rickshaw adventure and enjoy every minute of it, even the more stressful ones before the big day 😉

    1. Ryan - Site Author March 4, 2015 at 11:42 pm

      Hey Franca, thanks for the insight. I know anxiousness before a trip is a given, but it was really intense lately, though I think it stemmed from the stress I was going through as well. But I am so excited, and I’m happy you are as well for it!

      Yeah, oh well about the manager doing that, but I just have to move on and stay positive like you said!

    1. Ryan - Site Author March 4, 2015 at 11:43 pm

      Glad you’re as excited for it as me Valen! I’ll shake off the nerves I think, thanks!

  2. Ashley March 4, 2015 at 1:24 pm

    The Rickshaw Run sounds like such an epic event and I look forward to reading about your experience! I recently returned from a trip to India and loved it- it’s an amazing place!

    1. Ryan - Site Author March 4, 2015 at 11:44 pm

      I am now about to go on your blog Ashley! Haha. So awesome that you had a great trip! What was your favorite part of the trip?

  3. Katie March 4, 2015 at 7:27 pm

    Good luck guys!My brother did the Rickshaw Run three years ago and loved it, spending another 1 1/2 months in India and Nepal afterwards. His two friends found it all too overwhelming and left India, despite having plans for more travel there, immediately after they finished. I guess India isn’t for everyone. I am heading there for the first time myself early next year and am nervous about it. I really don’t want to hate it and will go there with as much of an open mind as possible and be ready to give myself up to the madness (which will be very hard for me as I am a control freak). Looking forward to reading about your experience

    1. Ryan - Site Author March 4, 2015 at 11:47 pm

      Hey Katie, thank you for the good luck wishes! And that is awesome your brother did it as well! Prettyy rad. And wow nearly another 2 months after! Too bad his friends weren’t enjoying their time there, but I guess like all countries, any one can take its toll. Very cool you are going there as well, anything planned at the moment for what you’ll do? And I know you have heard some good and bad, but you won’t know either way until you go so I think you should just look forward to it =)

      1. Katie March 5, 2015 at 6:12 pm

        I agree – I will look forward to it – I am already looking forward to it! I am most interested in spending time in Kerala, Rajasthan, Kashmir and the Andaman Islands as well as Varanasi and Agra (although I don’t want to spend long in that part of India – too full on!)

  4. Julie March 5, 2015 at 8:55 am

    Hey Ryan! Loved this post – especially this “But, as I like to say — the world wasn’t acting against me, the world has bigger things to worry about — like revolving around the fucking sun!”
    Fear is a crazy thing but I believe it can serve a purpose. Not to paralyze, but to keep you on your toes when a little extra vigilance may be necessary. India is an AMAZING place. And, the roads can be flat out crazy. Channel any fear into ass-kicking determination. Can’t wait to follow along on your adventure. I am covering you all in prayer, friend!

    1. Ryan - Site Author March 13, 2015 at 10:07 pm

      Hey Julie! So happy you liked the article! And yes, that is a motto I definitely try to live by, but sometimes I have to remind myself of it!

      I cannot wait to explore India and I’m already on my toes about it, excited to see what happens once I arrive and once this race begins! But yes, I need to turn fear into motivation! Glad you’ll be along the journey with me, many thanks!

  5. Molly March 5, 2015 at 10:29 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear about your job! When you have goals that require money (like traveling), it’s easy to let money control your emotions. It’s great that you’re keeping a positive attitude, though. Good things tend to come to people who maintain positive, intentional, and happy thoughts, and sounds like that’s what you’re doing. Excited to follow your travels across India!

    1. Ryan - Site Author March 13, 2015 at 10:12 pm

      Hey Molly, thank you for the encouragement and great points you make. It definitely took control of my mentality and of course that is a part of the drive to save for my travels, it was having bad affects on my mood. But I will try to stay positive of course and you are helping keep the spirits up!

  6. Mary @ Green Global Travel March 5, 2015 at 10:32 pm

    Can’t wait to see India through your eyes! Wishing you all the best in your next three weeks of preparation!

    1. Ryan - Site Author March 13, 2015 at 10:13 pm

      Many thanks for the well wishes Mary! Super stoked, and I can’t believe it is so close! Ahhhh!

  7. Rutavi Mehta March 6, 2015 at 7:22 am

    Being an Indian woman, participating in something like this so adventure itself is big dream and also motivatin for women like me.. It does take lots of courage to go aganist the society. So when I decided to join my friend DErek who I knew from 2 years through travel blogging community I was thrilled and scared at the same time. India is beautiful country with very warm people across. I have travelled in my own country extensively and I must say it is so many countries without visa. People have always fell in love with my country. Through our team Ryan and Derek, we would like to pass the message of motivation , women empowerment and crazy travel life. We will need your support for this by talking abbout our team “Teen Romanchak Yaar” and also contributing in the fund as mentioned abpve. Im very glad that something like this came my way and im stiriving hard each day for Rickshaw Run 🙂
    Hoping to meet you Ryan soon and have crazy fun 🙂

    1. Ryan - Site Author March 13, 2015 at 10:16 pm

      So happy to have you along for this race Rutavi and it seems like it will be a big and crazy adventure for all of [email protected] So happy that you are encouraging others to travel, and especially your focus on inspiring woman to do so as well. Not that I feel women are less capable of this, because every backpacker that I know that is a female does way more badass stuff than me, but I know your focus is breaking Indian women out of their fear and comfort zones and that is really great! Cannot wait for India!

  8. Ashley March 9, 2015 at 10:23 am

    Dude! Awesome. First of all, I would LOVE to hear all about illegally sleeping in a Lord of the Rings location and ya know, all the other mishaps. I feel it’s stories like those and the struggle that make the best stories. We’ve all been incredibly lost or thought we might be homeless or broke in a foreign country (right?) and at the time it might be the scariest thing on Earth but years later I am so thankful to have had that struggle in my life. Good shit doesn’t come easily. Second, waiting tables will eat your fucking heart. Easy, easy money though it is, aren’t you just a little happy to not be working for someone who says, “we just don’t have room for travelers here…”? I hate hearing people say things like that to such driven, positive people!
    Good luck on your run and I can’t wait to see all the photos! Stay positive and upbeat and everything great will follow!

    1. Ryan - Site Author March 13, 2015 at 10:19 pm

      Ha! Ahsley, oh I have sooo many of these stories to tell, how about over beers somewhere in the world? Haha. I need to write all about this crazy journeys and I have so much to tell. But yes, those times when I have sat there with no money and just have been in that moment it has been the most memorable of times.

      And yes, waiting tables has eaten my spirit up for too long and I cannot do that to myself anymore! Time to get that out of my life.

      Thank you so much for the encouragement dahhhling and so happy you are as stoked as I am!

  9. Flip Flop Dude March 11, 2015 at 7:26 am

    Sounds like an amazing adventure I’m sure you will love it, I love India.

  10. Amrita Das March 14, 2015 at 6:26 am

    Come soon! Getting anxious before travelling to India is normal. And while travelling through it too. Let me know if you need help with any of the places (tips, suggestions, recommendations) you’re travelling through. I’ve travelled through the country extensively by myself and will try and be home (Shillong) when you guys reach there. Come soon! Ride safe 🙂


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